This adorable little girl, Kate Mcrae was healthy,(it seemed) one day and the next day, June 29th she was diagnosed with an aggressive malignant brain tumor. This little girl's life and her family's life was changed forever that day. She was operated on Friday, July 3, 2009. Since the operation, as you can imagine, there have been many complications. Below I have copied a Journal entry posted tonight by Kate's Mom. It touched me and I hope it will make me think twice the next time I have the thought, "If I hear the word mommy one more time today, I'm going to scream."
I encourage you to read the journal entry below and the whole Journal at www.prayforkate.com and then pray for this family and Kate McRay. Lord please heal this sweet child.
Do you know those days where your kids are endlessly calling "mommy"? I have had many of those in the past. My kids are 6 (she will be 7 in 2 weeks), 5 and 4. There were many times I would say "okay no one can call me mommy for 10 minutes, I just need quiet!". How many times did I complain about how it seemed like they were always pooping and I was always wiping. How I loved those days where I could lazily stay in my pjs and not wear any makeup. One word can change all of that. Cancer. Now I beg for my daughter to say mommy, just once, just for something for me to hang onto. I don't care if she screams it, slurs it, anything, just say mommy. Kate finally pooped today, in the bed (of which I was sharing with her). I was so excited to clean her up. She pooped! I kept telling her how proud I was of her. Now I rejoice that she poops, the surgery didn't effect that. As far as pajamas go, people here in the PICU might believe that it's possible I don't own any clothes. I would love to get out of pajamas. Just don't feel the need most days. Things change quickly and forever. We can never go back. We can never again be pre-cancer days. Our lives are forever altered. Just pray we can have post cancer days. Lives after God's healing. I want it so badly for my baby. So badly for me. So badly for Aaron. So badly for Olivia and Will.
Not sure what tomorrow holds. Possibly another MRI, I hope not. They are going to do another one to make sure the bleeding has stopped and see if the swelling has gone down.. (at least that is what I understood, but I don't hear a lot these days). If she has the MRI again that means more sedation and more intubation. AHHH! Please pray for Tuesday, I am absolutely dreading getting the pathology report back. I know most would think at least then you can move forward, come up with a plan. But the word, the diagnosis, one more layer of innocence torn away. Then it will be studying and hearing facts and statistics and prognoses. I don't want to.
Kate is crying. I need to help her. She is trying to say a word, but can't pronounce it. Help us God. Help my daughter! Heal her body, every single cell. Preserve her spirit. Help her fight. Give her rest.
*Pictures and post copied from www.prayforkate.com If for any reason this is copyrighted please let me know and I will remove from my blog.
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